this is a difficult to write and i've been composing and recomposing it all day, trying to get the right words to squeek out. my feelings are still fresh and tears are still available. but i'm in need of a good processing.
today sarah and i went for our every-other-daily run...but today, of all days, we were walking instead.
approaching the last leg of our route through the early morning city suddenly we saw him.
a little boy of maybe 10 or 12. emaciated, wounded, starving, covered in his own shit and thus attracting flies. balancing on his toothpick legs, he clung to the small swatch of fabic around his waist to serve as pants. looking horrified and completely lost. this starving terrified boy stood frozen in the middle of the sidewalk.
frozen in the middle of our path.
with his mother and father dead it appeared that he had been cast out to fend for himself or die. the latter had chosen his fate...
but slowly and carefully we took him to our house to get a taxi to mother teresa's home. and it was amazing to see our neighbors gathered around to help, and yes to stare, but they were kind, they were concerned. and it was redeeming to see this sincerity in a city where i often see only a survival mode and often i strain to see any sign of genuine concern...
even now images of this small boy, this frail skeleton of life fills my mind. the injustice that surrounds me, is full of faces and lives. and still it becomes more real to me. even when i do not choose it...
when we brought him in to the mother teresa home, with one look the sister thanked us telling us in two more days this boy would have surely died.
i don't have compartments for these types of experiences.
i was just going for my morning run. thinking about the marathon we're running . thinking about our weekend. about sari bari. about a million things. and then...
little boys who are about to die stand across our paths. and we're faced with a choice to step out to reach and touch and carry bodies to help...or to run past. we could have missed him. he could have died.
but tonight, he's not on the street. he's clean and fed and sleeping in a bed with folks who will care for him and love him.
simply from the volumes his weak little body told, i cannot imagine the horrors this little one has experienced to arrive him here.
and still, sarah reminded me just the other day...do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
this is what i cling to tonight. in the midst of tears i cannot shut off for a suffering world, a suffering country and city and young boy...we will see good overcome.
we did today.
5 comments:
bethie...it was so good to talk to you today! i just loved hearing your voice, and hearing what you had to say and what you experienced today shook me. i need reminders like this to show me past little kokomo... and it's a good kick in the butt to find those naked, beaten, hurting little boys and girls that live here. they may look different, but they are here too. thanks for your love! i miss you!
kalee
mourn and suffer. please don't get compartments for that.
Paco
Beth,
Everytime I read what you write, it makes me ask God what am I doing here? How am I touching others? Who am I overlooking? Especially today. My heart cries out to God for the young boy, the others like him, and for you.
Prayerfully,
Jennifer Lee
Beth-sometimes the word to describe something as awful as what you witnessed can only be a "cuss" word. The people that know you and what you are about can not cast a single stone. My wife and I are so proud of the work you do and we are always pushed by God (through you) to do more. You are an inspiration to my family...keep up the work He has placed before you and just be the person God has called you to be. Jeremy and Tonya a CCC family!
Hey Bethie dear--I have been reading your blog, but decided to go back and catch up on old posts that I hadn't ever read. Thank you so much for this one. WOW. Such a good reminder not to compartmentalize, even though it is easy to feel like you "have to" to "get through the day."
Also...anyone who got mad at you for using the word shit hasn't seen enough shit.
End of story.
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